Friday, April 6, 2018

Awesome Friday Vacation Day

Well it is Friday once again and I took the day as a vacation day. It has been a great day all around.
I went out with my daughter to Metrotown where we had lunch and did a bit of shopping. We went out that way as I was waiting to hear from a gentleman in regards to buying a Garmin 10 for the amazing price of $10.

After Metrotown we set off for home and then we tried the new to me Garmin out. It was wonderful and we had a great time. I love being able to spend time with my daughter and now that things are calmer in my life it makes it even that much more enjoyable. Looking forward to many more runs with Katie and also with Tanis my sister in law.

Did you have an awesome Friday?

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Designing My Life

Things have been interesting lately as I am in the serious process of designing my life as to how I want it. Both personally and running wise. I have been for a long time walking with my wonderful best friend sister in law Tanis and over the last few weeks we have been working towards running on a consistent basis outside.

I feel happy most of the time although I do have my bad days. Things are going in the right direction and I have even started a vision board for myself on Pintrest to work towards the things I want in my life. I want to travel and see the world. This summer with a couple of friends were are going to go to Las Vegas and that is what I believe will be the first of many trips.

In the meantime. Relax. Breathe and Carry On... The best is yet to come

Friday, March 9, 2018

Inner Struggles

I have found myself struggling over the last week. I can't quite put my finger on it but I know that there are questions that my critical self is asking and stating that I am struggling to answer.

Things like

-you are alone
-you realize you are always going to be alone?
-what makes you think that anyone is going to want you?

Every time these thoughts are popping into my head the struggle is to make them go away but sometimes it is rather hard.

Any thoughts as to how to help make these thoughts go away?

Sunday, March 4, 2018

Letting Go Sunday Run

Some things that I have never heard discussed is how hard it is mentally to let things go. Whether it be a toxic relationship, bad employer, backstabbing friends. I know that people just simply say let go but it is never that easy.

Today was the first day in a few weeks where I actually decided to head outdoors for my run. It was a little on the chilly side as it was only about 2 degrees outside but it was a good run. I felt energized and ran faster than I normally do on the treadmill.

I used to worry that I probably look silly out there running as I am not fast by any stretch of the imagination but am past that now. I just do me.

Happy Sunday everyone. Hope everyone who runs today has a good one.

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Odds and Ends

Things have been going quite well and now that my mouth has pretty much healed up I am going to start back to running this weekend. I am currently reading the book "You Do You" It is an awesome read so far and I am getting quite a bit of benefit from the information that it has.

I am focusing on becoming the me that I was meant to be. Everyday i get a step closer be it with my crocheting, running, or just being the best person that I can be.

My passport arrived early last week so now I am good to travel. When it comes to going to Las Vegas this summer that is one less thing out of the road.

Anywho this is all I can manage today as I have been up since 430 in the morning and did an hour of overtime so my brain is officially fried...

Sunday, February 11, 2018

Love Yourself

With all that has been going on over the last year the most important lesson I've learned is to "Love Myself" I am finally at the point where I can look in the mirror and say I love you to myself without cringing.

It took alot for me to get to this point. Up to and including  severe depression that ended up with me being on antidepressants.  I had hit my ultimate low where I laid in bed at night and tried to think of reasons as to why I shouldn't kill myself. That was the hardest time I have had so far. I know it wasn;t just all about me as I my life was falling apart. My husband decided that doing drugs and who knows what else was better than being a part of my life. I felt useless and hopeless. Now more than 6 months later and I am in a totally better head space.

I am grateful now for all the good that is happening in my life. I feel better than I ever have. I have great friends and people who love me and want the best for me. I am going to start working from home soon which will be another adventure that I am looking forward to as I will be gaining 10 hours of my life back per week that I won't be spending commuting. I have a dog that I love who is the sweetest little beast. I have all these ideas about things that I am going to be doing over the next while and that is what is letting me know that I am in a good space. I am so very far away from the beat down person I used to be.

What are you grateful for?